Time moved on today
Slowly from Phoenix to Flagstaff i tried to forget you.
Stood on a bluff in my minds eyes, my arms around your waist
My head resting on your shoulder. My ears straining to hear the sound
of your heartbeat as it pulsates in your neck.
sadly its all just a conjuration of you, who I made up in my mind.
We have conversations, its just a shadow of you.
It's eyes don't hold your light, its laughter is hollow.
One last time, one last time you reached out and kissed me soflty.
Your soft lips coming in contact with mine, your hand on my cheek.
Pushing into my hair pulling me closer.
I reach out gently pushing a hand into your back pocket
and pull you flush against me as your tongue invades.
Then as the wind furls my hair I pull away gently saying goodbye.
From Phoenix to Flagstaff the anthem of "Let go" played over and over.
And from Phoenix to Flagstaff I let go of you.
Slowly tried to forget anything more than just friends.
I let my heart bleed as the sun set across the mountains
I let myself grieve and the wound within me bleed openly.
Tears fell from my eyes and I grieved.
I grieved that I am not enough, that you won't give me a chance.
This is how I move on. This is how i heal. I process
"Let go." words so easy to say yet so hard to do.
I'm slowly letting go. Today it was the softness of your lips
I'm trying to forget to remember, and the way your hand burns
in to my cheek, pushes into my hair, holding me wanting me.
Today I let go a little more.
